This seems the shocking revelation of self-observation. We are never the same for long.

Ouspensky commenting on Gurdjieff’s system:

‘Man has no permanent and unchangeable I. Every thought, every mood, every desire, every sensation, says ‘I.’ And in each case it seems to be taken for granted that this I belongs to the Whole, to the whole man, and that a thought, a desire, or an aversion is expressed by this Whole. In actual fact there is no foundation whatever for this assumption… Man has no individual I. But there are, instead, hundreds and thousands of separate small I’s, very often entirely unknown to one another, never coming into contact, or, on the contrary, hostile to each other.’

We can’t really say we have ‘will’ when there are so many disparate personalities vying for the main stage. If they could somehow be forged into one though, then anything would be possible.